Internal Bleeding

My pain is invisible.

There are no compound fractures,
Melanomas, or lacerations.
No sign of concussions, contusions,
Burns, bumps,  or bruises.

But I’m bleeding on the inside.

Mood disorders and depression
Wage their attack internally.
There is no superficial wound to display
My pain for the world to understand.

I’m bleeding on the inside.

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9 thoughts on “Internal Bleeding

    • Thanks for sharing. A lot of times, especially before I was diagnosed and on meds, I felt like it would be so much easier to deal with something more tangible and ‘socially acceptable’ like cancer or an amputated limb.

  1. I agree. I went undiagnosed for a long time and even when I finally was, no one understood what it was. My husband still has a hard time understanding what I go through. I was scared people would judge me and think I was crazy so I didn’t tell people I had it for a long time. Yet, I found that the more I talk about it, the more people I find in similar situations.

    • I think I went about 4 years of everybody just thinking I was depressed (or just a mean jackass) until I was finally diagnosed with Bipolar II and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I agree- the more I talk about it with people, the more people I find that have similar experiences. I’m very open and honest with the teens at church, and I have told my story of depression, self-harm, Bipolar, etc. to several groups in attempts that others can learn and heal from my story.

  2. A pain that is invisible is a pain still felt. It shows nothing but the weight of the pain is still there. The bleeding eventually subsides but when you can’t see something you can’t treat it. It’s trial and error and that may seem like eternity. Time is funny that way. People can make mean anything they don’t understand. And people won’t understand unless you let them in. But just because you let them in doesn’t mean the pain becomes visible. It just means they stop bugging you about one thing and start bothering you about the next.

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